One day when 7:30pm rolls around it won’t be anything more then another hour in the day, but tonight they need me.
Tonight, even though they have pushed me to my limits all day, tested boundaries and had to have more fights broken up then I could keep track of, tonight they need “big hugs & so many kisses.” Tonight, even though they are growing so big, they said “Mommy, will you sleep with me.” Tonight, even though I’ve climbed the stairs 1/2 a dozen times since they laid down, they needed me again as growing pains started making their legs hurt. Tonight, even after being held all day, they needed one more snuggle before finally giving into the sleepiness.
These days are long, and the nights aren’t much different. They, more often then not, are full of everything I mentioned and more. They are full of more love then I could of ever dreamed of or hoped to have. They are full of chubby little hands folded so sweetly by sleepy faces. These nights are full of snuggles and whispered secrets. My evenings aren’t my own, just like my heart isn’t my own anymore.
“MAKING THE DECISION TO HAVE A CHILD – IT IS MOMENTOUS. IT IS TO DECIDE FOREVER TO HAVE YOUR HEART GO WALKING AROUND OUTSIDE YOUR BODY.”
So even though I desperately want a few minutes to just relax after playing referee all day, I’ll stay and watch your little belly rise & fall as you breath. I’ll come sleep with you, just one more time, because one day you won’t ask. Most of all, I’ll try to remember this when I am too tired to notice how special these moments really are.
“HOW WE SPEND OUR DAYS IS, OF COURSE, HOW WE SPEND OUR LIVES.”
Momma’s I don’t know about you but this is the life I chose. I prayed for each of my littles, pleaded that the Lord would bless our family with a baby, then another, and another…
Its a tiring thing being a Momma. Somedays there just isn’t enough coffee in the world to change that. BUT, I pray that we can all remember that this is such a rewarding “job.” Our job pays in slobbery kisses, chubby hands full of flowers, and drive by hugs. We’re paid in silly stories, with “Mom look what I can do” moments, with giggles and so much love.
I pray that at the end of the day when we are exhausted and ready to just be done, that we can remember the love more than the inconvenience of having to walk up the stairs one more time. These moments are worth it, they are the ones, that if we’re not careful, we will look back and wish we had taken more of.
Hug your babies, tuck them in an extra time, there is nothing to lose that is worth more than a few more minutes spent with our children.
CHILDREN ARE A GIFT FROM THE LORD; THEY ARE A REWARD FROM HIM. CHILDREN BORN TO A YOUNG MAN ARE LIKE ARROWS IN A WARRIOR’S HANDS. HOW JOYFUL IS THE MAN WHOSE QUIVER IS FULL OF THEM!…
(this post was written after one of those days when you are ready for it to be tomorrow, before its even lunchtime)